Kim Holman's Journey

Today marks three weeks since my last “normal” day. To be honest, having metastatic breast cancer hasn’t felt real. I feel just the same now as I did in December. I’m not in any pain. The real irony is that the rib that was bothering me three weeks ago didn’t hurt enough the next day for me to have even been concerned about it. My energy level is still good. Today, Glen and I hiked 2.5 miles.

I’m planning to work through much of my treatment. I will work a full week next week and be off the week of February 10th. Originally, I was planning to be off most of that week anyway to visit my parents; I can’t visit them now. After my week off, I will work as I am able, probably starting in the 20 hrs/week range but increasing or decreasing depending on how I am feeling. I have an incredible supervisor who supports me to first focus on my health and then work. I am also blessed to have a job that I enjoy.

As some of you know, last October, my parents went on a waiting list for Stuarts Draft Retirement Community near me in Virginia. My mom is still packing, and we are looking forward to the day when they will receive the call that a unit has opened for them. Again, we simply trust in God’s timing for everything.

At this point, the best thing anyone can do is to pray. Pray for wisdom for my doctors. Pray for the cancer to go into “remission”. Pray that my strength will continue. Pray for my family. My prayers have been filled with such gratitude. I’m grateful I broke my arm playing football with my grandson, and that I apparently cracked a rib then. If I hadn’t felt that pain, that one day, this disease would have progressed even more. I’m very grateful for my family and friends who have held me these past few weeks in prayer.

I must confess, that part of me is a tad expectant. I often ask God to use me. The day before I was diagnosed, I asked God to draw me in deeper with Him. I’m wondering how He will use me on this cancer journey.

I’m not a regular blogger or even a frequent Facebook poster. However, I will try to post updates on occasion. If I’m not posting anything, then assume that no news is good news!

The music of CeCe Winans often speaks to me. Here is what I’m singing today.